The freshman freak-out

Alyssa wonders about life’s possibilities and considers the future at the foot of the cross.


Alyssa Alvarez, Writer

Like so many freshman, I think, I realized in my third week of college that I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

The exposure to real world issues, careers, and fields of study my small-town public high school failed to give me are coming down on me all at once. The possibilities are suddenly endless as the horizon draws ever nearer.

Here I am, sitting in my communications class and loving what I am learning about people and personalities and how they interact with each other, and I am positive I want to work with people and their relationships. Then I step into the auditorium for Intro to Psychology and become captivated by people’s feelings, emotions, behaviors, and motives, and all I want to do is study the human mind and soul. I quickly make my way over to Foundations of Christian Thought and hear about worldviews and the greatest ways to have meaningful conversations that could save people’s lives, and I know my calling is evangelism.

But which is it? What do I do?

I think the greatest gift in the world is Christ’s death and resurrection. And I believe that is the answer every time I have a question.

Questions and answers

If ever there is a time to question my life goals, it’s now. Here, in my first semester of college, I can ask any questions I want and my scope will only grow wider. But when I take the time to consider what questions I am really asking, God blows me away and redirects my focus to the cross. Does it matter what I do? Or only how I do it?

Even in my first semester crisis, I saw the truth. As long as I can glorify God and tell people who He is and what He’s done, it doesn’t matter where I am or who I am with or what I am doing. If I can love others and build them up as I go, aren’t I doing God’s will? God has a plan for me, but by stressing out over the details and ignoring the ministry opportunities along the way, I am not following Him in obedience.
In the words of HelloGoodbye, I like where we are, here.

The Biola blank

Biola is fantastic. I have nothing bad to say about it, and trust me; I’ve been looking for flaws and reasons to complain about why it’s too expensive. But I can’t. I haven’t found anything I don’t like. Nothing to report that makes me wish the tuition was a few hundred dollars cheaper because the admin really falls short when it comes to… fill in the blank. But that blank is still blank. I can’t fill it.

And thank God I can’t.

Right down to the people in my dorm. They are the best. They build me up and we have the greatest conversations together that sharpen me beyond what I knew. Proverbs 27:17 says “As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.” Thanks to all my iron out there. You sharpen me more than you know.

In the comment box, tell me if you’ve had a freak-out about your future and how you got through it!

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